Guess starting this blog thing was a good idea. Especially at this time. Can call it pms or whatever (afterall, 'p' can stand for 'pre', 'present' or 'post' right?) but it certainly feels like a whole lot of grey clouds are in my sky. Hope it won't last too long. My sunflowers need the sun.

Feel this constant lethargy and mild depression. Sometimes wish I was coming down with something so I have an excuse to stay home. Am looking forward to watching my last disc for Yi Tian Tu Long Ji, but at the same time wanna save it for a good time and day. At the back of my mind I think I don't know what I'll spend my free time doing once I'm done with the disc. Guess I'm less of a loner than I thought. Can't seem to find the right people to do certain things with. Even when I have someone in mind, that person's usually not free. Thinking about the mission trip that I'll have to miss just depresses me all the more. Still praying I'll be able to accept God's will with grace and thanksgiving. URRRGH....hate this feeling..."..drive the dark of doubt away..."....