Always dreamed of doing THAT. Never had the guts and never thought about how to go about making it a reality. Not a big dream. Just a dream. Something i wonder about a lot. Mebbe less now cos somehow as we age, dreams seem less real. Less possible. Then perhaps if and when we do marry and have kids, we force these dreams upon our kids...make them fulfil what we could not. Hmm.. Once, i plucked up the courage to try, just a small step in a small way. Many aspects. Many ways of starting to do down that road towards that dream you know. Short of it is, i failed. Did badly because i was not confident. A friend asked me to try again. I'm still considering. It's been 4 months since that first failure. Then again, i'm not sure if it's something God would want me to do. If i were to try again, i'd have to put in some time to...kinda prepare. Not sure i have that. Time is a luxury now. So tired now. Not sure I can drag myself to do that prep and put myself through failure again. Is it that important? Are there other ways to dream? Can i make up for the rest and sleep i'll have to forgo if i wanna go through with it? I dunno. Need to think. *dribbles incoherently*