I've always known this world is unfair, unfair, unfair. Still, even having known that fact for the longest time, every bit of unfairness still hits me squarely in the eye and makes things so hard to swallow... HOw to be meek?? How to be like Jesus?? How to let sleeping dogs lie??

It's probably hard to believe that such injustice and lack of fairplay exists in an educational institute, but it does. Oh boy, it does! Racism is rampant in this place, to extents that people wouldn't even believe it possible. Basically, if you are i......, young, pretty, you get away with everything. Or actually, just being i...... is enough. Look, even i...... who are not in this institute get better treatment than us regular folks! I could tell you stories of all these till the cows come home and still there'd be more coming.... I feel so wei qu now, i dunno wat i'd rather do first: scream and wail out loud in the middle of the staff room or just cry.

I've just been asked to swap duties with this i..... lady. Arrrgh. Swap??? For once this year, i've been made a 'reserve' for the GCE oral exams. Yes, altho that means i have to be 'on call' and take over the duties of anyone who absents themselves without getting a replacement, i figure chances of that wouldn't be very high. So overall, i was happy with what i was given because i was down for 10 days of oral last year and it was so terribly tiring. I had no time to prepare lessons or even mark anything! This woman complains just becos she gets 8 days of oral, says she has no time, goes to the Head and BAM! I get her duties while she gets away scot free. Bear in mind that she did NONE of the orals last year while the rest of us slogged. It's so UNFAIR!! IS SHE GONNA DO MY MARKING AND MY LESSONS THEN???

This same person ripped my work 2 terms ago. We both started this job at the same time. After more than a year, she still had no idea how to set a paper. Out of the kindness of my heart, i lent her the paper which i set for my sec 4 class. This was on the day our papers were DUE TO BE HANDED UP. She asked me to look thru the paper that she set and that's when i pointed out that certain sections were irrelevant. So she borrowed my paper and my assessment book for reference. Promised to return it later that day. I mean, the deadline was that day itself rite?? How would i know she'd bring my stuff home, then send me a lame sms to say she ACCIDENTALLY brought my stuff home?? How in the world do i accidentally bring something so big home?? The next day, she had the nerve to leave a POST-IT....a POST-IT???!! She din even have the guts to tell me in my face!! OR LIE rather... Know wat she said? She asked if she could use MY PAPER for her sec 3 class because she CLAIMED her computer crashed... HUH! Does she actually think people would believe that??? I should have just made a fuss but i didn't.

She's stepped on other colleagues' tails too apparently. We're all supposed to source for reading articles for a specific level and to set questions for the students. She and i are supposed to alternate. Which is already half the workload compared to last year. Last year, i had to do it all year round by myself. So i was pretty happy with the arrangement. Last term, she was supposed to do it. Know wat she did?? She told the printing lady (who HAPPENS to be i..... too) to rip the articles off another colleague who was doing articles for an entire different level. Without even letting that colleague know she was 'borrowing' her stuff. So my poor, unknowing friend had for the longest time diligently sourced for stuff, brought it to the printing lady for printing, not knowing that when her back was turned, the printing lady was going to zap a copy of her work, use liquidpaper to change the level of students it was for, and eventually print it for unintended readers. It wasn't till students started wondering why they were given the same articles, that the whole thing came to light. Instead of being ashamed, this big baby makes a scene as if the world is against her, blames the one she ripped work from saying that she 'bao to' her, and declares that reading articles are the least of her priority and that she's too busy to do it! CAN YOU BELIEVE HER??? LIKE WE'RE VERY FREEE LOR! AARRRGHHHH!!! I'M SOO ANGRY I WANT TO SCREAMMMM!!!

Dun feel hungry anymore. upset.