I'm beyond upset. Literally. As in I'm not even upset about the initial issue I was upset about anymore.

It was a trivial matter actually. As with most things I usually get antsy and agitated about. I'm learning to stop being apologetic about even getting antsy about it because I've come to the conclusion that that's just the way I am, and as long as I don't sin when I'm in this state, I don't have to be hard on myself and feel like I committed a crime just because I feel the way I do. Some of you would understand me when I say this...you know how there are times certain things get to you and though it may not be a big thing, at that specific point of time you're feeling this way, you just feel this intense need/urge/desire to just pour it out to a sympathetic ear? Someone you are close to and will understand exactly how you feel? It's not about getting a solution to the problem, with girls it's hardly about that. It's just...you know, comforting, to have someone hear you out and go,"yeah yeah, I know exactly what you mean...", or exclaim with feeling "what in the world did he do that for??? What was he thinking??", or "Aiyah, don't bother about XXX lah, it's not worth getting upset over...". You know what I mean???

With all that background in mind, can you understand how it felt to have been indignant and frustrated over something and calling people for a listening ear, only to have been able to get NOT ONE SINGLE PERSON I wanted to talk to. I called a grand total of 6 people. Close friends, young friends, friends from before, and even friends not in Singapore. Nobody picked up...

Epilogue:
The feeling is over. I've already rationalised it to myself, that there's no point getting upset about the original frustration. Don't really want to talk about it anymore. Don't need to now.